…someone or something so much that it makes you cry? Boy…I tell you…that is the absolute case for me. A few short weeks ago decided to take a trip down memory lane. It was about four in the morning and for some reason I found myself stuck…literally could not sleep. For the life of me I couldn’t understand why, because I had been up over 24 hours. During the midst of my wake apnea (a phrase I coined a while ago for insomnia) I strolled over to my PC…one that I hadn’t logged on in probably six to eight months…and even then I just used the Microsoft Office apps.
As I shifted through the “my documents” folder, I began to lose myself in the moment. I made the choice to open EVERY single file on this computer. Clicking the folders one by one I arrived at my very first class I attended once I re-enrolled in college…ENG 111. Wow…even though this class was about five years ago, I remember everything about it…at least I thought…then it happened. I clicked on the my second paper I wrote…Reading the paper, I instantly began to tear up until the bottom of my eyelids overflowed to the brim with tears…each tear drop flowed from both of my eyes like a rushing stream. In this moment…all I could think of is him…the man that I loved more than any other man on this planet…My Father…My Dad…My Best-Friend…the man that wasn’t my biological father…but you couldn’t tell me that wasn’t my dad…the man that has helped shape the very being on the person typing the blog….let me share with you a small excerpt of this paper….
My father is far from perfect…but everything that he did to me, he always had my best interest at heart. I absolutely love him for that. I am going to take the core values my father instilled in me and teach my son. I hope with what I learned from my father, my son will be a better person than me and my father combined.
What makes this so special is that my father…he succumbed to issues of the heart and went on to glory just a few short months ago. Over the course of my collegiate life I have written hundreds of papers…and this one here…I will hold deep down in the depths of my heart. Understand this people…time will not wait for no single person. Cherish each moment as it was your last. Love more than you want to breathe…If I could would love breath back into my father’s body…