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Even Grown Folks Throw Tantrums….

I glance back now to see where I came from…

I can’t believe I’m two terms away from my degrees now…and yea I did say degrees…#dualmajor

Especially after my wife died…

That period sucked…

BUT God has been on my side…and I have a BUNCH of prayer warriors praying for me when I was weak and didn’t wanna pray….

And was mad at God…

But through my mess…He still blessed me

He allowed me to throw my little tantrum…then He politely whipped my tail for being outta line…

That is what parents do…they allow children to get away with a few things…and then spring that punishment on them…

And ooh boy…did I do me…

God sent some beautiful people in my life to attempt to keep me in line….

But how you do you keep something that really doesn’t wanna be kept…

So I remember the last time my wife came to me in my dream….

She was furious at me…and my behavior…because up to this point it was about me…it had been about everybody else previously

I guess I was thinking it was finally my turn to be about me…

Ooh wow she gave me the business..and then told me that I was disappointing her…that’s why “you get what you got”

Now it is all clicking….I’m walking…still not all the way there yet….

I’m destined for my destiny….

I’m getting it right…but I guess I needed to get it wrong first…

To truly appreciate my life…

My life was like a reckless abandoned

Now its more like the prodigal son…

Was on my knees…bent over…about to eat…then he called me…

I came to my senses…

I am my DADDY’S son…

I’m making it…

I smile now…thinking back…to lose my father…and wife within a year of each other…

That’s why I never judge…you never know the next person’s story…

 
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Posted by on June 23, 2012 in Twolgs

 

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Gain…Rinse and Free Quarter Dryers…

As I say all the time…it is absolutely crazy how things come to fruition.  Now I’ve been writing this blog for about two weeks now…picking it up and putting it down.  Then I attempted to write a Twog (Twitter blog), but that didn’t work.  Not until I got to work this morning and went on about my daily business was I able to truly be inspired to write this blog.  This is the first time in quite sometime that I have been able to sit down and in one continuous motion write a blog…maybe it is starting to come back to me!!!  Needless to say…it’s time for me to move out the way and allow the words to do what they have to…

Desire to inspire…just needed to get that one out!  Anyways…I’m going back a few weeks now…my birthday was May 10 and I was going through a normal routine, I typically get my haircut on my birthday and go buy me something to wear.  Might be a little vain…but that is what I do…Off subject for a second…somebody asked me the other day why I always use 3 periods where commas and semi-colons should go…I said the periods look cooler…hahahaha…okay I’m back.  So my birthday now…did some errand running and I had plans to hit the city with a few of my buddies…nothing major…grab a few wings…watch the basketball game and go downtown and have a drink.  Well it just ended up being me and my eldest son…which is cool…that’s my homie.

As my night began to end I remember that I had an enormous load of laundry in my trunk…so I said what the heck…I stopped at a 24 hour laundry facility and finished my birthday night washing and drying clothes…it was cool though…because I was the only one there and it gave me the opportunity to just reflect.  I just sat there and watched the load of clothes wash…just daydreaming or nightdreaming…I dunno which one…because it was like 1:30 in the morning.  I was thinking about the struggle…the trials…ups…downs…you know that typical stuff folks think about when they are in a reflective moody feeling.  You know…I was just grateful that God allowed me to witness another birthday.  Crazy because I remember a time in my life that I never thought that I would make it to be as old as I am…not that I’m an old fart or something…but I didn’t think I was gonna make it to be even 25.  Crazy huh…I guess that is just the environment that I came from…dunno…

Fast-forward now…its two Sunday’s ago and I am back at the laundry…this time a different one…and I have like literally…15 loads of clothes.  Who does that…I mean just have 15 loads of dirty clothes.  Don’t act like I am the only one…but anywho I loaded these five washers (they were three load washers) and got them all started.  My plan was to do some homework before church but I left my backpack…why the heck does it seem like I’m rambling right now…ooh well…since I had no backpack…I just sat in front of the washer…and that’s when it hit me…Gain…Rinse and Free Quarter Dryers…

I had that same feeling I did that night on my birthday.  Watching the washers go through their cycle it was interesting…all I could think of was the Holy Trinity…The Father…Son and Holy Spirit.  How does this connect…Follow me for one quick second and I pray by the time I’m done that you would be blessed…If we take a REAL self-evaluation we would see how dirty we actually are…well speak for myself.  You might not be dirty.  You might have the purest of thoughts and actions…but as for me…nope…nada.  I’m observing these clothes…filled with detergent…being clean.  Now not all my clothes in the loads were as dirty as others…but some of them were extremely filthy.  Lemme ask you this…have you ever worked out or just had a bad day and took off your undershirt and the smell was like…UGH…again…maybe that is just me…but when I’ve had days like that…I just stick those clothes in the middle of the pile just to hide the smell….then when you go to sort the clothes you come across that shirt again and it smells God awful…see when you are sorting clothes everything is revealed…you find all types of stuff in your pockets…you find clothes that you have been looking for…everything I mean.

Okay follow me now…back to this washer…I’m watching all of my clothes go through these cycles…all the detergent suds…then the rinse and spin cycle…and finally being placed in the dryer…then it hits me like a sack of bricks again…THE FATHER…THE SON…THE HOLY SPIRIT…See…it is the Holy Spirit through God that picks us up when we are dirty…helps us began to sort through all of the madness we get ourselves into…you know all that dirt and filth…it is the Holy Spirit that washes us…see when we are being cleaned…we are made a spectacle out of…people see the transformation…folks see that we are being cleaned…that we are not the same.  This is why some people hit you with the lines, “You are changing” or “You are not the same” or maybe “You think you are better than me”…when the Holy Spirit places a stamp on you…NO…you are not the same and you are changed…and it’s not that you think that you are better than the next…its just that you can’t place yourself in the same situations as before…you can’t fraternize with the same folks…when you know better you do better.  So as I’m dwelling in this revelation…then I am hit with a second one…

The RINSE CYCLE…see after the Holy Spirit picks you up and washes you…It is the SON that rinses you off…not with water…but the blood that HE shed for the remission of our sins…so we can still be here…so we can experience the things that we do.  No load of clothes can be completely washed without a rinse cycle…the rinse cycle is one of the most important cycles…see what this does is not only continue to clean us…but humble us…now watch this…SOMETIMES us as Christians do get caught being a little too…ummm…RELIGIOUS…we do act to be too clean…just like laundry…how can you complete the washing the clothes without rinsing the detergent off…marinate on that for a sec…

Now at this particular laundry facility where I live they have free quarter drying from 7a – 10a everyday if you wash your clothes on there you can dry for free…now watch this…see the final step in this process is the drying.  We dry our clothes…fold and put away…they smell and feel sooo much better.  That is what God does…He is the Alpha and Omega…it was Him in the beginning and it is Him at the end of the process.  Okay…free quarter drying…how can it be free and be quarter drying…Even though the drying is free…the price had to be paid for the drying to commence…you get it…The Son had to pay the Father the ultimate price for our clothes to be dry….1 James 5:6-9

This is the one who came by water and blood —Jesus Christ. He did not come by water only, but by water and blood. And it is the Spirit who testifies, because the Spirit is the truth. For there are three that testify: the Spirit, the water and the blood; and the three are in agreement. We accept human testimony, but God’s testimony is greater because it is the testimony of God, which he has given about his Son….

 
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Posted by on June 2, 2012 in Religious

 

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