I’m finding out as each day passes I seem to learn more and more about myself…about this new David. It is fascinating how we think we know ourselves until we are thrust into situations and we have to react at a moments notice. Coaching football and baseball is something I love to do. I use this analogy to my kids all the time…”you can be a practice player all you want….but when the lights are on and the band is playing…get at me then!” What I basically mean is this…show me how you’re going to react when it is gametime…when the spotlight is on you. Everyone is not built for gameday…that is why there are role players…whew…I have gotten so far off topic…lemme get back to regularly scheduled programming.
One thing I am learning about myself is that in every dynamic that my life encompasses…I’m not as patient as I once was…and patience has always been one of my greatest attributes. That is weird.
Being a father is great! I would not trade this for the world…BUT it is hard being a parent. I never realized how judgmental I used to be until now. Previously…hmmm I would think about why certain people would struggle raising children. Not that I thought that these were bad parents, but raising your child to be productive member of society is not hard at all…UNTIL I had to do it by myself. Even though I feel that I am an intelligent person…I thought certain things were just cut a dry…and that one of them. The problem is I had an enormous amount of support…I never had to do it solely by myself. Even when #1 was younger and he would come to Omaha to visit me months at a time…I still had a support staff…go figure…I thought it was that easy for everyone.
Okay…so what’s my point…when the deck is stacked against you…you realize what you are made of. This is so big…but yet so small…I had to take #2 to do some “girl” things the other day. I always thought that when this time came…Ronya would be there to take care of it. I never thought that I would be comfortable enough to deal with some of those “girly” things…but I did…and it was so uncomfortable…but yet so funny…we both just kinda smiled at each other…that was one of the greatest feelings I have ever felt. At that moment I know #2 and I create a bond that will never be broken.
I thank God that I have children!!
“I am learning to understand rather than immediately judge or to be judged. I cannot blindly follow the crowd and accept their approach. I will not allow myself to indulge in the usual manipulating game of role creation. Fortunately for me, my self-knowledge has transcended that and I have come to understand that life is best to be lived and not to be conceptualized. I am happy because I am growing daily and I am honestly not knowing where the limit lies. To be certain, every day there can be a revelation or a new discovery. I treasure the memory of the past misfortunes. It has added more to my bank of fortitude.” – Bruce Lee