Addition by Subtraction the Remix…Say Hello to the Bad Guy….

When I first started to write this series of Addition by Subtraction, I didn’t have a clue that my feelings would become so entangled it them. I have written several more post regarding this topic, but I decided not to post them. This will be my final Addition by Subtraction post…..with a slight twist to it…..Addition by Subtraction the Remix…Say Hello to the Bad Guy….

Like my boy Will, a lot of my blog influences especially when it comes to titles are some sort of lyrics or a name of a song. Say Hello is a song by Jay-Z that I have been listening to the last few days. Initially it was just a song that I liked…but today I was paying attention to the hook of the song…

To the bad guy
Hello
They say I’m a bad guy
I come from the bottom
But now I’m mad fly
Say Hello
They say I’m a menace
That’s the picture they paint
Hello
They say a lot about me
Let me yell ya what I ain’t

Lately I have had some serious changes manifest in my life…some warranted…some not..I know that you all have heard the age old adage….Sticks and stones my break my bones, but words would never hurt me. There was a point in time where I felt that this was an accurate statement…but as I was placed in certain situations…I quickly realized that this is not necessarily the truth. I have learned that David is not as hard as I thought. Sometimes the very emotions that I compartmentalize are the same ones that I wear on my sleeve. During these life-altering events… I have learned that David has been wrong in many situations. I have learned that David has hurt people. I have learned that David has a lot of maturing to go through…

It has been over a year since Ronya has passed away…and through this entire journey I have experienced some extreme highs and lows. I have done many things along this time that I don’t approve of and I would have never in a million years imagined that I would have done things of this nature. I haven’t robbed a bank or committed a murder…naw nothing like that…but I have hurt people along my personal quest for the pursuit of happiness.

Many things I have done over the course of this time have somewhat come into question. It is crazy… but what I have learned more than anything is that David is human and I have made mistakes. I can admit to my mistakes and take any repercussions from them. I know my character and the type of person I am. At the end of the day…I can only be me. The biggest lesson I have learned is that…I am accountable for me and the things that I choose to do. I live to learn……Say goodbye to the bad guy…..